I'll be taking next semester off. Whether the date of April 21 sticks or not, it seems viable that the surgery will be that date, April 28 or dates in late May. I hope it isn't in May, because the summer semester begins around June 1. Frankly, I'm okay with this for two reasons. One, I just finished Nursing Research Methods and I hope to all medical people reading this understand just by the title of the course alone. Two, I'm doing this poster at this symposium thing. And today, it got bigger. I've been invited to submit my abstract for another conference, this one in October in Orlando. For the Magnet people. And I've been asked permission to include it in some other thing that the U publishes about What Nurses Are Doing at University of Colorado.
My data sort of sucks, I really don't understand the fuss. Like....*I* like my project but anyone who's taken 6th grade math should be able to see the holes in it. It's a very nice compliment, and it would make me far less paranoid and nervous if I deserved even half the attention. I'm not being modest. I passed the 6th grade. I can add. And subtract. I don't understand the fuss. It's such a nice compliment, but I kind of can't stop looking at these people like they're crazy.
I don't get it.
But anyway, it is sounding like I may not want to be doing a class because I think I'll be doing work-tangential things. Symposiums and posters and....I don't know, fuss.
I got the idea to do this blog because my credentialing portfolio was a blog, too. It's the blog that got me this unusual attention. It sounds like I'm going to have to work a lot harder because if nothing else, I need better numbers for my project I'd really love it if the Epic people (Epic = our database/front end software) would just give me god access to the database, and I would write the most beautiful queries and get my own damn numbers. Chances of that happening are nil. Because I'm just a nurse, what would I want data for?
I'm relieved that I have next semester off. I'm writing to you as I am putting off editing our Group Paper project on children in Colorado, and vaccine schedule choices. You can tell I picked the subject, can't you. (<---- this is a grimace, glued to my face.) That's the upside.
The downside is all the time I get to think about this surgery probably entirely too much. Don't get me wrong; I'm delighted that it's 4.5 months away and not 6. I will have hardly anything meaningful to share in the next 4.5 months, because it's just a wait. Maybe posting some more journal articles as I perseverate on it. On the fence about getting an actual referral to one of our cardiothoracic surgeons, so he can tell me the Nuss is medieval and I should get the open heart procedure that snaps off my cartilage instead. Still contemplating if that has value.
I do talk to the surgeon Monday. So yeah. I'm sure I'll post more then.